Open Question: been depressed lately… help?
this is probably a little long so i you don’t really care just back out
I’m a guy and I’m 17 by the way just to put that into perspective. about a week or two ago i started getting pretty depressed.. I suppose there could be a couple factors in which I guess you could help figure out. To start, I have this huuggee crush on this one girl which was pretty awesome and I heard that she thought I was pretty hot or whatever. That sounds good and all but here comes the crap part, my best friend and this girl have been talking a lot lately and its more because one of her best friends said my best friend and her would be a good couple and should talk to each other more which I guess I didn’t really mind. Now I know that my best friend probably likes this girl and that is the sole reason I haven’t gone for this girl and why I haven’t told my best friend that I really like her because then he would totally back off. Oh, and I forgot to mention that my friend has been hallucinating for three weeks straight due to a brain disease that is not really serious so far but the doctors do not know what it is (they said it was not a brain tumor at least so that is awesome). So that also has added to my recent depression. My friend has also been in one relationship and ever since that ended whenever he gets into relationships, about one week into their relationship for some reason the girl stops liking him. Plus overall, my best friend has had a pretty crappy life. Anyways… back to the girl. They have been hanging out a little bit lately and I think thats pretty cool but because they have been together I have had to throw my feelings away for the girl because I know my friend will let me go for her if I tell him I like her. The next crappy part is he talks about her sometimes and whenever he does I feel like there is a hole in my heart and my body kind of feels empty. Pretty shi*ty, I know. So there is that situation. Two more possibilities that add to this depression. This is kind of minor but if my GPA (for school) is not a 3.2, my car insurance company starts charging me a lot more because they have a “Good Student” policy that reduces insurance a lot more and I would have to start paying around $100 and I definitely do not have the kind of money for that. Lastly, this should be a good thing but school is ending and next year would be my last year of high school so I am happy that school is over and that I am almost out of high school but maybe it is that I might not see some people that I normally talk to. I dunno. And now because of all of this sh*t, some kind of negative things that happen daily get me really, really down. For instance, last night I was supposed go to a surprise party for one of my friends who is going away to California for three months starting like tomorrow and since I do not have my drivers license (I know, I should really get on that) I called one of my friends at like 3:00 and left a voicemail and text that said “Call me if your going to the party because your my only ride.” The party started at 7:00 and because he did not call before then, I just figured we wouldn’t go. This friend calls me at 10:30 at the part and asks where I am at and what I am doing. Obviously, anyone would be angry but I felt like my world just shattered.
Anyways it felt kind of good to vent all this out to at least one person (hopefully…) but please, please what should I do?
And obviously best answer goes to the best answer. Thanks a whoole bunch for sort of caring enough to read it if you got this far.
Additional Note - It is probably the sheer fact that this girl has been one of his only rays of light in his life for a long time (besides a couple of his friends) that I wont go for her. Not to mention I’m way to hell of a nice guy to do that to anyone. And obviously my best friend wouldn’t want to give her up but he would only back off because it’s me. If it were anyone else he would say “F*ck No!” Man I love that kid. And a couple of you are forgetting about the brain disease (I know it was a lot of reading) which is another reason I would feel bad. And putting this on yahoo answers only made me realize that I have to do this on my own so thanks!

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 05:43:25 GMT

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