Heart Flutters

Open Question: I think it’s my fault my dog died?

July 26th, 2009 | by admin | Open Question: I think it’s my fault my dog died?
I adopted a puppy mill rescue dog, and had her for 2 and a half years. She died several days ago- she was an older dog when I adopted her (maltese), and the vet estimated she was 10-12 years old when she died. She’d become sick about 10 days ago- vomiting, lethargy, etc, and I took her into the vet when it didn’t get better after 24 hrs. She stayed there for almost 5 days being hydrated, blood tests run, x rays (which showed nothing), before she was a little better and they sent her home with me for the weekend. She wasn’t eating at the vets, and he thought maybe she would eat at home in her own environment. The 1st day back she did better, but then stopped eating and started acting lethargic again, so back to the vets we went. The 2nd blood test showed an infection had started- we had no choice but to do exploratory surgery (my vet wanted to avoid because she was old, had a heart murmur, and some other health issues). Her heart stopped beating during surgery. they found a small piece of foam in her intestines- partial blockage- didn’t show up on the xrays because it had absorbed fluids. I feel so guilty, and completely at fault because I knew she had done this type of thing before. I remember her stealing my napkin in the past and starting to shred it before I took it away. I remember my larger dog ripped apart his kong toy, and she found one of the little pieces after I thought I’d cleaned everything up, and ate it. She threw that up without incident. I’m not a messy person and didn’t have clutter on the floor, and if I saw something small that shouldn’t be there I picked it up. But somehow I missed this, and I KNEW I had to be careful. I loved her so much and wanted to give her a good life after being rescued from that mill. 2 and a 1/2 years doesn’t seem enough. I hope she forgives me and knows how much I miss her- how do you get over guilt like this????

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 01:58:13 GMT

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