Heart Flutters

Open Question: Please Help Me Im Scared?

October 16th, 2008 | by admin | Open Question: Please Help Me Im Scared?
My mum is going mental. She is going really wierd. I am 14 and she has her ups and downs but shes already got some chronic mental disease from living in the Uk as she is originally from Switzerland and she hates it here.
I have a brother who is 10 and she shouts at us a lots and regulary reminds us that we are unwanted in our house after we are 18.
Sometimes she gets so angry becuase of bottling up her anger (she doesnt want the neighbours to hear), when she drives us to school she go balistic and im scared shell crash the car. Its like she will coause herself a heart attack and she goes on about hatred so much and she vividly descibes her pure hatred for everyone and i feel depressed for school. It makes me feel SICK to hear this..so sick…
Im not very popluar at school which makes it worse and my so called friends make fun of me but they are the only people at school i have.
Shes is not always like this, somethimes she is nice but even when she is nice she tells us horrible stuff.
This morning in the car again she told us that if my brother and i squabble just once more she will stab us.
First in the toe but then properly. I really really dont think she would every do this, shes not at that stage yet but that is how full of hatred she is. She says that we will be working as slaves for the rich people around us and that we cant expect much from our lives even though my teachers tell me im really gifted and i always get good grades but my mum says she doesnt care as we dont have anough money to pay for university so we will just have to slave for others.
How can I help her as she doesnt have any english friends and she refuses to go to the doctor for help apart from medicine
She speaks of suicide from overdosing on the drugs her doc gave her for her depression and that makes me feel so small compared to everyone else i know.
Im sure she loves us.
Maria
The thing is she wont have help. If i tell someone shel hate me! I know she loves us but i want to help her, if i tell someone everyone will thinks shes evil but shes not! She just has a problem.
I love her too.
My dad lives with us and hes a very easy going kind of person. He has mentionedd going to the doctor but my mum doesnt want to hear. Whenever she does this he gets very stressed and goes on a bike ride. He has a lot of stress at work and this doesnt help him.
My mumj usually speaks about this stuff in French so therefore he cant understand.

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 18:59:48 GMT

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