Open Question: Weird thoughts about death?
So, I know this might sound weird, but lately it just feels like I’m getting old and my life should be nearing it’s end soon. I’m not depressed or wanting to “end it all” or anything, I just feel like I don’t want to grow old and die from something like a stroke or heart failure, I’d rather be killed some other way, not by my own body failing on me. I feel like I’ve lived my life and that there’s nothing really left for me to do in this world…which I’ve heard some older people say as well, problem is I’m only 18. I have a good life, I’m a happy sophomore in college getting a degree in biology, but I guess it just seems pointless now, I’ve already lived the “golden years” of my life (highschool) and it kind of feels like I’m just wasting time waiting to die. =/ I don’t WANT to die, I’m more of just…ready. The thought of dying doesn’t really bother me much. But the thought of how I die is increasingly important. Disease or sickness is NOT the way I want to go, I want to die for something meaningful “guns blazing” so to speak. I’ve considered joining the armed forces to possibly fulfill this wish. Are these normal thoughts? Can you be suicidal without being depressed or unhappy with life? Or is this a normal phase when your life starts to slow down a bit? Sorry if this is a weird questions, any answers would be appreciated.
I said high school was my “golden years” mainly because I go to a community college now so it’s not like what you think of with “college life” you just go to class and go home, no dorms, no parties or anything like that. Also the majority of people I hung out with either moved away or I lost connection with so all I really do now is eat, work, go to school, and sleep. I’m not unhappy about this, it’s just not a very interesting or meaningful experience in my mind.

Mon, 18 Jan 2010 06:10:27 GMT

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