Open Question: I’m about to commit suicide…I want to die?
Here’s the thing. I’m nothing but a problem in everyone’s life, I’m literally stupid. I had a full scholarship to college but couldn’t focus and ended up making bad grades and they dropped my full scholarship. I’m extremely short, but most importantly…I was with a girl for five years and loved and still love her more than you could ever imagine. I gained my confidence from her, being with her made me so happy and I was happy with myself. Now we’ve been broke up for a year now and this is my first summer since I was 14 going without her, I’m not a good friend to anyone, I lie, I cuss, and it feels like God has turned his back on me. It’s like he doesn’t answer my prayers like he used to. I used to take advantage of things but I’ve changed so much and just want to be able to talk things out with my ex, she has blocked all contact with me and wants nothing to do with me. She’s so happy and I’m holding on with everything that I’ve got. I do nothing but hurt people, I influence everyone’s life so negatively. I’m too depressed to do anything…I can’t focus on anything I hurt so bad all I want to do is just set and cry and pray and be alone. I don’t want to live like this anymore. There are so many good people in the world getting diagnosed with brain tumors and stuff…they are happy and have families and I don’t think that’s fair, I don’t want to live…why can’t I be the one that gets things like that? It’s so painful being alive, all I do is negatively influence people’s lives. The world would be so much better if I just died. I don’t want to be alive anymore, I want to go peacefully and be with God. But I know if I pull a trigger I’ll go to hell. I’m so lost…I just wish that something would happen like I would catch a disease that is going to kill me in a few years. I don’t want to be alive anymore. I’d be happier just leaving the world, I’d be so happy knowing I wouldn’t have to go through this anymore. I loved her with all my heart and she doesn’t even care how bad being away is killing me.

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 04:30:25 GMT

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